Weight update

I haven't been talking about the eating thing for a while. Weight is stubbornly staying under 50 kg, it's been at 49 kg for some weeks now. Last week might have been a plateau because although I was eating more than ever, it was all veggie and I was on a fairly rigorous exercise routine... I'm honestly thinking vegetarian diet might not be right for me, no matter how good it feels. Here's some more honesty for you: I think my belly looks soft and round, and I prefer the way it looks few kilos down. I'm not unsatisfied about how I look as such, just an observation.

I have a month until the con, and doesn't look like I'll be able to reach 52 kg by then. It makes things more complicated, and especially under these circumstances I hate to be the one that has all the responsibility for others... I'll be the designated driver because half of our party doesn't have a license and the other half is unwilling... Luckily they are also the most understanding people on earth - still, leave it up to me to make problems for myself when they don't exist.

Eating is just... a chore. Boring, unpleasant, at times difficult... and yes, sometimes impossible.

To keep up with the routine I build up at the retreat I've set my alarm to ring half an hour earlier and have started a meditation practice. It's not much yet, but quiet me-time without hurry or pressure feels really nice.