Update

Bah, the longer I wait the more difficult it becomes blogging again.

Am I suffering from a bloggers block? Is it that I don't have anything to say?

I don't know. Things are pretty good, I guess. My mom's visit is now couple of weeks behind, she was a great guest and was missed. We spend a lot of time working on cosplay, meeting friends, going to parties. Work is work. I do very little asana. I study Sanskrit and meditation. I teach yoga.

And I am mindful. About what I do, about what I eat. I take breaks to just sit still. I eat - some days enough, some days not. Weight is something like 45-46-46-47 so it's going up... I feel bloated and I feel like I eat like a pig. I question my thought patterns, my sanskars, and I try to use my buddhi, my intellect, to reason that this isn't so, and try not letting my ego get to the driving seat.

And summer is here... in the mornings our apartment becomes an oven and we have to open all the windows just to be able breath. But we are cautious of leaving them open when we leave, we've had some squirrel pups and and visit us recently. We've brought the fan up from storage and it was immediately put to good use... today it's raining again, but it never lasts for long and it's still warm. Everywhere is green and luscious and beautiful.

Yes, I'm still here and in this moment.