I so wanted

Somehow it was easier making the confession to all you guys, who live half-way across the world. Practically none of my friends here read this blog (mainly because we don't actually advertise it), but I have been getting comments about my appearance from all of them and having to dodge the subject has been getting difficult... So I decided to send my confession to them too - wrote it, then hovered over the "Send" button for 24 hours.

This morning I actually had gathered enough courage to send the email, and to my amazement I found total of 18 people that are so close to me I wanted to let them know. I feel so incredibly blessed to have so many important people around me, and the responses from them have been overwhelming, I've been holding back tears again. For them, and everyone else who has contacted me directly or though the blog, even if I don't (immediately) answer you, I do read everything you say and cherish your words and presence.

I went to Padma's meditation class last night, and didn't get the normal comfort I get out of it, until the final meditation - just when I was getting into my own space the class was over... must have been the first time ever I wanted another half an hour of meditation. Surrendering, letting go.

(I'm not going to give you my eating list for yesterday as I'm ashamed of it)