From the brink

Yesterday was definitely a break down point. I was so emotionally drained after my confession that all little shows of support from friends far away brought me to the brink of tears... so I left work and went home. But I had made a decision, and I cooked myself a healthy nutritious lunch.

It took me about four hours to eat that, but I made it in the end. And not having eaten meat in 5 months resulted in a terrible stomach ache and I slept most of the day. Yesterday's eating list was like this:

bowl of oatmeal for breakfast
chicken stir fry for lunch
handful of raspberries in the evening

It's not great, but at least everything on the list is healthy. This morning I was hoping that the worst would be over, but I'm still feeling completely stuffed and sight and smell of food disgusts me. After some prompting from Don I made myself a cup of mint tea and slowly it has kick-started my day. I still feel like crying, but I'm at work and hopefully today is a start of a slow move towards the better.

And I so much want to give everyone good news, and better the next, but I have to be realistic and accept that this isn't going to be fast.