Change? Probably not

I've been on the quiet side - my mom is here now so my biggest reason for updating has disappeared for a week.

It's lovely to have her here... I've missed her, and I've been able to say things I've had on my chest since June last year. And didn't really even know they were bothering me this much until I've suddenly started crying and just letting it all out. Countless number of pots of tea have been consumed and we've talked about philosophy a lot, especially about Patanjali's yoga sutras and how this ancient map of the mind is still as relevant as ever. I'll take her to see Padma tomorrow.

Eating? Well, a little. I weighed myself on Sunday - trying to do this once a week at the same time - and the scale shows 46 kg. I'm not reading too much into that, one way or another, these kind of small fluctuations are perfectly possible. After last week's inspiration from the Buddha I've been mulling it over... there are some really interesting things coming from it. I'm still being very humbled about my support network, surprising how sensitive some people are and how they make things easy for me. For example on Friday I was too lazy to go and have lunch, and Don invited me to share his - so I took a fork and started eating from his plate, and we talked about something else than eating and watched old Amy Grant videos together. And that's really perfect - I've been trying to take the stress out of eating as much as possible, to make all the eating experiences as pleasant as possible.

Still getting little nudges from my friends from different circles. Some are a little bit late, like my friend Laura who hadn't read her email in two weeks - but she called and we had a very interesting talk about things only sixes talk about. And since she's actually probably the friend that I see most regularly in Vancouver, she sees things my friends on the other side of the Atlantic don't, and her eye is keener than most people's... some things she sees are uncomfortable, but a lot of thoughts this issue has brought up to the surface are. I think I need to talk to her more.