That eating thing

What's stopping me? I get stuck again
Is it really OK? It's never OK for me
What's got into me? I get lost again
Is it really OK? It's never going to be

I wanna go to a place... - Rie fu

Those few lines from Rie fu's latest album pretty much sum up my thought pattern. I try not to get stuck in these negative grooves but sometimes I can't help it. Like with the eating thing... several people have talked to me about it and I'm sorry I didn't get back to you all. I'm amazed about the sensitivity everyone have shown to me, I was expecting more "get over it" type of comments that are of absolutely no use.

Slowly it got better. I'm still not eating as much as I probably should be, but I'm not weak with hunger all the time. I get easily distracted into doing something else, be it writing, sewing or reading, and before I notice I haven't eaten anything for eight hours... but it doesn't matter because hunger doesn't feel bad, and I know I should be eating but I just can't be bothered. My energy consumption has gone down too because I'm not doing much (asana) yoga at the moment - my old wrist problem has seared up again and I'm giving it a break... and I always notice it in my yoga if I'm not eating correctly, and now that indicator is missing.

Otherwise I'm really enjoying my vegetarian diet. I feel lighter and better, and after about three weeks the worst craving for meat has disappeared. I'm still not sure if I'll keep going after one month, but it's definitely been an interesting experience.

And not to go totally gloomy, here's a question for you. Do blonds really have more fun?

Posted by kolibri at 31 January 21:44, 2007