Slowly forward

Work is a pain. This is the problem when I'm coming to the project on it's last meters - I don't have the knowledge to do the more complicated tests, and the more simple ones are done quickly so I spend lot of time idling. It'll get better in time, I know, it's just a bit frustrating in the beginning. I spoke with Vlad today, one of my Russian collegues, and he said that he had originally very difficult to find a job in Vancouver because "he didn't have enough Canadian experience" - while I find this kind of attitude from employers quite offensive, I'm kind of glad that my theory regarding why job hunting was so difficult for me validated (and that it probably wasn't me). You know, in some countries it would be considered a definite advantage of having worked in another country.

Today I decided to skip yoga as I was far too tired, and while I missed going, I feel better now: not as completely wiped out. So we had a nice evening with Dragon eating cherries, watching wrestling and strongman competitions, and I played around with Comic Life and created the most stupid comic ever - and consider it a favour that I'm not sharing it with you. Once I'll have access to something else than photos of cheesecakes, I'll make something that might be worth sharing... But so far I can say that this program is every bit as fun as the claims say.

I've been thinking a lot about yesterday's meditation. Since I've come off the medication I've had to work a lot more to calm my inner chatter. My teacher says that your mind is like a little monkey, jumping from tree to tree looking for food - I find the desrciption very fitting as that's exactly what's happening inside my head. So letting go of all those thoughts going through my head near the speed of light is very difficult - but when it happens it's so rewarding. Yesterday during the contemplation on Loving Kindness my teacher asked me to let go of all the worries and doubts in my mind - and I just did it and the inner peace stayed with me well into today.

Those are the moments when I know I'm on the right path.