Random thoughts about yoga

I've never heard anyone discuss this before, but I can't be the only one who finds certain asanas in ashtanga erotic. I'm talking about asanas that strongly engage the mula bandha (the root lock, using pelvic floor muscles), especially the seated ones like Paschimottanasanas. I remember when I found this for the first time, I was quite surprised and actually disliked it - it took the attention away from the practice. Since then I've been wondering about it, and if it's the "right" thing to feel or am I doing something wrong (and I mean I'm not engaging the lock right), or is it just one of those taboos that no one wants to talk about because it takes the focus out of the mental aspect of yoga.

And I'm probably tempting all the googlers even writing about this... Generally I don't find yoga erotic - it's different to for example going to the gym and lifting heavy weights and getting the pump (and Dragon can explain all about that), that feeling is definetly invigorating and empowering. My best yoga practices are when I'm able to concentrate on myself and the breathing, and then there is nothing else than me and the practice. Those are the moments are long for, because they are very rare for me - I'm constantly multitasking and getting all the threads to run the same task is almost impossible.

Also - I'm constantly interested in other peoples' practice. I know this is probably another yoga taboo and I know you're not supposed to compare yourself to other people, but still I can't help it. I used to be the star pupil of the class back in Karen's class back in England, most other girls did yoga maybe once a week I was doing three. Now - and especially in the primary series class - I'm one of the novices having never before practiced the full primary series in one go. Not that I find it unpleasant as such, but it is a cause of irritation because I can't advance fast enough for my taste... at the same time I'm more than aware that time is the biggest factor between me and most other people on the class. I'm just too damn impatient.

Besides, other people being more skilled at it than me is great - I've for the first time seen some asanas done, and it helps me to know where to aim. But also these are people doing beautiful yoga which is always a delight to watch.