Wednesday 23 February, 2005

Hate it

kuu.jpgHave I told you I hate job hunting?

Well, I do. I hate the feeling of getting excited about a job that sounds really good, taking time to prepare a cover letter that you think really captures you well, heart pounding send the email... And then never hear anything back. Constant rejection, constant disappointment. I've shown my resume to several people who seem to think it's good and describes me and my skills well - so the problem must be with me and my skills.

Today I got so exited about this one job that I forgot my yoga class, something I've been looking forward to all day. Yet I'm almost 100% certain nothing will come out of that application either - it's just too perfect: exciting and fun industry and even the location is within walking distance...

So I've been trying to get some distance between me and the job hunt, so that I wouldn't care so much, so I wouldn't be so bitterly disappointed every time nothing happens. But what happens then is that I stop caring about getting a job at all, and will just forget all about it and do happily whatever it is that I'm doing.

I've been thinking about some other career options too, maybe do something completely different. I'm not sure if it's just a backlash of finding the job hunt so difficult, maybe it's just that I've slowly started seeing my life in a different light.

But at the moment, my options are totally open. I kind of continue to look for a job, but I can't get too involved with it or it will just kill me.

Posted by kolibri at 23 February 18:20, 2005
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# 1 - Jaana-Mari (on February 24, 2005 02:18 AM):

The flight over the ocean did not suddenly erase your skills, nore did it change who you are. It isn´t your skills or you, sometimes it just is. Getting connected, knowing people who know people, that would help. But I do realise you´re not at your most social these days. Why not do something else in the mean time, it does not stop you from hunting the jobs from the field you´re trained in. It might even get you more enthusiastic about getting back to your old profession...


# 2 - kolibri [TypeKey Profile Page] (on February 24, 2005 09:41 PM):

Words appreciated.


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