Monday 27 September, 2004

Timid

I feel timid. I got into my car this morning and I notice I'm actually afraid of driving now. Previously I thought I was an ok driver - ok, I might have even thought I was a good driver - and now I just feel incompetent. Every corner I take, every stop I make, I just don't feel I'm in control, I'm afraid of just losing it again.

I got to work safely, despite the fear. I'm going to go an get an estimate for the repairs this lunch time... Still not sure if it's going to be worth getting the car fixed before selling it (or even if I will have time), but I'm told it's worth getting the estimate anyway so the dealers can't cheat me. Not that I know anything about selling cars or haggling anyway... I want to give up and just want to get rid of the car because now it just reminds me of my stupidity.

Three more days and maybe after the dealine is over I'll feel better.

Later: The body shop is going to send the estimate to me by post. Maybe it just means they couldn't face seeing me crying.

Posted by kolibri at 27 September 10:06, 2004
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# 1 - Emokolibri (on September 27, 2004 01:58 PM):

I think you should count the miles you drived without accidents. I believe several tens of thousands. I think you are a good driver. :}


# 2 - Mikki (on September 29, 2004 02:25 AM):

See, that's common sense. I agree.


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