Between moments

So after telling everyone about my leaving I went home yesterday and cried a bit. Isn't it so that when you form a relationship you give part of yourself to the other person, you invest in the relationship. I feel like I took those people's investments and now I'm doing a runner.

Dragon tried to console me but he didn't have the words.

Maybe it needs to be a friend who consoles in a situation like this, not a partner. He's too close to my pain, so close that he's too wounded by it to be able to make it better. He just sees this distressed crying little thing that needs to be healed and gets distressed when he can't immediately do it. Chu feels my pain too, but she also knows with certainty that I am strong and that it will pass, and she gets me enthusiastic about the future again. She lists all the great things I'm about to experience and makes me focus on them. We make plans with our heads in the clouds and suddenly I'm looking forward to the change again.

Later on we watch more Mucha Lucha and I cuddle up to Dragon in the bed.

It'll be ok.