This is it

Well, here I am then - another year older, another year wiser. I've been following with interest Mikki's and HunnuH's conversation in my previous entry's comments, and other people have made interesting remarks too. I wish I could explain how I've been feeling lately - but as HunnuH said "it's a feeling and not based on facts", so maybe it's not even possible. Suffice to say that I have been feeling anxious and strange, and some of it has probably been because of my 30th birthday and pressures society and biology have placed on me.

But here comes the good news: I'm feeling better now. In fact, I think the turning point was Friday's birthday party - somehow being there with my friends and celebrating the event seems to have got it out of my system... almost as if I was given permission to grief and was consoled and forgiven. And I don't mean that literally of course, it's just a feeling and not based on facts.

Celebrations are pretty much over - I've got some chocolates for my collegues and we'll probably get some nice food from Waitrose and make a nice meal this evening. If it hadn't been for the bad news yesterday about my grandfather being suddenly taken to hospital I'd probably say I feel at peace. But at least I don't think it's a 30's crisis anymore.

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